Where did my groove go?

On a whim I googled the above title thinking I would add some great line from a quote or song or something... the song/video that popped up was, well, yeah -- not to my liking (and I wouldn't want to make you suffer through it even for a short while).

Feeling a tad stressed over the upcoming BizBaz and trying to figure out how to banner/display/shelter/brighten the booth.  Not even knowing the size of the space still makes me a bit queasy.  But I tell myself it will all come together as it's meant to be. Right?

Went shopping this morning - got 1/2 way through the checking out and realized no wallet in my bag.  I don't think that's ever happened to me before (which is surprising really).  They suspend the transaction (run all the charges and then hold your receipt for payment later) at Dillons it happens so often.  Luckily the wallet was in the car rather than the home or the office, which is what I thought. So it wasn't as big as a disaster and I was working up in my head to have..

T.P. Tower

I was outfit challenged today.  I went through so many outfits yesterday (at least 12) and today wasn't much better.  I feel like a teenaged girl.  I forced myself to wear shoes that made me anxious today.

Even though I had at least three ladies compliment me on my outfit today; each time I thought to myself, "but you know they are wondering about those shoes."   I have a problem.  I am trying to work through it.



Went to work today and almost on my heels the Landlord (owner of Hobbs) and his lady were in my office exclaiming how much they liked; "no, we LOVE your cards."  Really they love Z's cards as the ones they have seen are the ones their buyer selected. Anyway... still waiting for final order figures but sounds like they are getting something for certain!

Dad Report: spoke with Dad finally; we think he was out with his wife on Sunday and at the exercise class on Monday when I called but he can't remember and I can only suggest ideas...he seemed in good spirits - a bit distracted I think by the T.V. or something.  We talked of weather a bit.  I can't remember exactly what got us talking about MN but I said "well when we lived in MN..."  and he paused and then asked me "well, what caused you to live with us?"   One of those moments when I suddenly realize that he's lost all connection to who I really am.  When I said, "well, your wife was my mother; and as a child I lived with my parents," he replied "oh yes I see. So you're one of Mary's children?"  Then he was able to piece it together with "so Mark's your older brother"  I told him a bit about some of the letters I found in my Memorabilia box that he had written to me - and how I had forgotten that he and his wife lived in Idaho for awhile (he had forgotten too) --

I need to have a family meeting and figure out what we are doing about christmas/holiday cards this year.  There's been a few ideas batted about but we haven't settled on anything.  Even if we don't make cards this year; we usually do some sort of craft/art project as a family.  It's a tradition I would like to continue for as long as we can keep the kids involved.   I relate more now to my Mom and how much losing those little rituals pained her.   I like ritual.

Random Photo of the Day: (less than random)


Well I downloaded a shit-ton of photos from my Iphone today - so we have a whole new ginormous file of photos to choose from... (ok I cheated, I selected a video -- then uploaded it -- it was literally a three second "error" shoot, so I am choosing the one next to it)

Ok so now it's not letting me upload anything. weird. 

Well I had to trick it - but finally it looks like it worked - from a cool exhibit in Bellingham, WA.

ah hells bells. It didn't work.  Here's a damn random photo: